Gray Haze

GRAY HAZE

Warm gray haze, smoke in my lungs

A funny little feeling, slowly it sunk

I smile a bit, for no real reason

I’m at peace, life’s at ease and

I take another puff, get real high

No care for the world, aim the sky, no more shy

As the hands, the feet, the face get numb

Slowly it sets in, I’m being so dumb

Gotta stop drugs, I have to quit

Every time I do them, I feel like shit

Time to go clean, live a little sober

Am getting a life now, the dream world is over

I tried so hard, was clean for a few days

Till on the streets, I smelled the gray haze

“Just one” I think, “I’ll slowly stop”

It gets me high and I feel on top

It makes me worse, yet I feel so good

I love this feeling though quit I should

Get numb, feel dumb, stop I would

Gotta quit, feel shit, I wish I could.

Alive

Alive

Dead to the world, was me asleep

3 in the night, woke up drowning deep

I looked at the ripples, the reflection wasn’t mine

The eyes stared down, watched me supine

It was the world watching me sink

Indifferent they seemed about my last eye blink

Dead to the world, deep in memories I slept

4 in the morning, I woke up with fire around my bed

The luminous flames the world had put blinded my eyes

And the heat of the inferno shut my mind

With no one around, the final moments came

Alone I burnt, my death had no name

5 in the morning, first of the sunbeams

My eyes flashed open, rose from lurid dream

With you by my side I took a deep breath

Kissed your forehead, towards you I leant

Your loving smile made me know

My life is more than a howling echo

It means something to those who give it meaning

That’s when I know in spite of the dreaming

Your love will always keep me floating

And put out the flames when the heart is burning