Paper Plane

My time has stopped, waiting for you

My life is lost, searching for you

My rhyme is broken, like our hearts

My strife is ending, waiting for a fresh start

My love is a paper plane

Riding a breeze of happiness that's you

Torn and crumpled the plane maybe

The heart still flies, for the love that's you

Flying high through the skies

My sight is dark, with a silver line

The wind stands still, and time goes by

Wrecked are the wings, on hope it glides

My love is a paper plane

Riding a breeze of happiness that's you

Torn and crumpled the plane maybe

The heart still flies, for the love that's you

As age goes by, wrinkles my plane

An ordained hope, surfaces your sight

A place to land, to be at ease

A fitting end, to a wishful ride

My love is a paper plane

Rode a breeze of happiness that's you

Torn and crumpled the plane was yes

The heart still flew, for the love that's you

A change of hearts

You and me

Under the big old tree

Gazed up the starry sky

Our spirits young and free

We saw the distant dreams

In each other’s eyes

Lying in each other’s arms

Throughout that night

“Ours will be a story to tell” you whispered

“Yes it will”

First few moments together

Yet, “for forever it seems”

You stole my heart

You held my time

Unlocked your heart

Yes, you became mine

Like a matchstick does

Our passion did burn

From a flash to fire

To ash forlorn

It was autumn I remember

When we went apart

Wasn’t our first

Change of hearts

We buried our love

Under the big old tree

For our love, our passion

Were young, were free

Obscured our dreams

When the misery came our way

But for all you know, a distant thought

Is just a heart-change away

Buoyant love

Buoyant love

A shining light, glittering hope

Benevolent touch

Healing my turbulent soul

Bridge kaput, two steps to love

I take one

In the torrent rest falls

A foggy night, a distant ship

Lonely at the shore

In the waves a face I see

A burning rage, an amorous heart

Bitter pills

An abysmal fall

A perched bird, wings burned

 Fervent yearn

Oblivious beloved

A dark night, mourning dove

Forlorn thought

My buoyant love

Two steps to love

Sugar and Spice (The way she is)

Rosebud laugh and a childlike heart

Oh yes, and visibly smart

Lips that sync with her flickering eyes

She’s the sugar and she’s the spice

She charms you with her grace

And wins you over with her wit

Test your patience, she does

But hopes you never quit

Only sings when you look away

Loves when in your arms she sways

Mystery like the big blue sea

She showed me the crazy me

She’ll cast her spell

And you wouldn’t even know

Test your patience, she does

Makes you fall so slow

So, I tell her..

Unlock your door

And let me step inside

Skip your weary mind

Just let the heart decide

She breaks hearts with her silence

And mends them with her smile

Test your patience, she does

But makes it all worthwhile

Unlock your heart

Hallucination

 The lips with a beautiful smile

Haven’t chortled, for quite a while

Eyes which had the brightest spark

Faded too soon into the dark

Her concerned words of care

Do now need their fair share

Her blithe merry ballet of joy

Exposed to life’s puzzles and ploy

The zeal of her adolescent heart

Splintered into bits and parts

Fervor of the juvenile soul

Witness to futile control

Her voice that echoed its distant dreams

In agony and anguish it just screams

The mind apostle to buoyant thoughts

Heedless vagrant, is distraught

In awe of her present and her past

Life and love as I passed, I asked

Was I delirious then, or am I now

Restore her past can I, somehow

My dream: The blue door

I saw a dream last night, and wondered all through the day – what does my dream truly mean? Finally, I decided to write my dream as a poem. In fact, dreams are just like poems, full of oxymora, metaphors and alliterations.


Hope you like it.

The blue door

3am in the morning

Finally I go to sleep

So many thoughts revolve in my head

So many, that it’s hard to keep

I finally cross a river

Before the gush could rise

I do it holding your hand

Even with my closed eyes

I reach the safe place

Behind the blue door

The flood starts to rise

As the skies start to pour

It’s gusty, submerged

the world now seems

A safe place this door

How longer would it be?

As you and me resist the surge

Try to keep the blue door closed

We manage to bolt the urge

But such strong brook, would it hold?

Scores of time passes

I’m still clutching the door

The storm has now passed

But did I let you go

I look around, you, I couldn’t see

Slipped through my fingers? How could it be?

I run the streets, still soaking the rain

And in my heart, I feel this throbbing pain

The picture brightens, I see the sun

What fell apart has been undone

The sky’s now clear, so are our paths

Why not, I wonder, such from the start

And I see you smiling, walking towards me

I feel your touch, your scent in the breeze

The love in the eyes as I see

I kiss your lips; put my heart at ease

My eyes open, I wonder what I had seen

In my thoughts I realize, you had been

And more than ever, I miss our past times, realize

My dream has no meaning, just this rhyme

Judge me, please

Don’t judge me by my past

'cause I don't live there anymore
Don’t judge me for what I do
You don't know my reasons or my chore

And don't judge me, my short love

Because forgetting you, was so long

Don't judge me for how I act

'cause you weren't there, when I cracked

Don't judge, don't say

“If I were you, I’d be brave”

Don't give me, clichés

My burdens you don't weigh

My burdens, my burdens

You don’t weigh my burdens

Step in my shoes, come walk, just once

Yes, these scorched tan tattered ones

And then...

Go ahead and judge me, all my friends

If you don't know me, nobody can

To the shadowy corners of your heart

Silently crawl, go ahead and judge me all

Go ahead and judge this dark song

Give me something to prove you wrong

Go ahead and judge me, thick as thieves

It’s no longer a grief, no longer a grief

100 goodbyes

Staring at the sky, nothing but emptiness

No stars shimmer tonight, in my darkness

This night, forever it seems to last

And I’m here alone, passing my past

I said a hundred goodbyes

But none of them help

All our dreams at one end

And at the other everything else

She can’t see me, no she doesn’t see

How I try, to just let it be

When I dial ten numbers just to keep the phone

And I don’t text her, even when alone

I know how far me she has led

Still I can’t get her out of my head

And I said a hundred goodbyes

But none of them help

All our love at one end

And at the other everything else

Its 5am and I still can’t sleep

‘cause I can’t face her even in my dreams

I ask stupid questions and regret

Every word she ever said echoes in my head

There’s nothing there, just a silhouette

And I keep promising, even that I’ll forget

And I say another hundred goodbyes

No, still none of them help

All my life at one end

And at the other everything else

Back to Me

Open my eyes I see the dream was gone

Wondering what went wrong

You would know, you could see

Why could I never believe

‘cause here we lay, lay asleep

But the moment I woke, I could see

I’d have to bring you,

Back to me

I’d write down a million rhymes

Sing them another million times

Till my set sun shines

If they could bring you

Back to me

So I do my best, being around

While you act, like a princess crowned

You could see, why I’d never leave

Saw too much love, inside of me?

But the moment the heart broke

I could see, clearly

I could never bring you

Back to me

So I call back all the birds

Flying to the places unheard

Singing along, these imploring words

I wrote to bring you

Back to me

So I stay away, never around

Wrong was I, yeah all along

Now you know? Now you could see?

How in us, you say “believe”

When I could now see, in those eyes

That scream loud, they realize

You can never come back

Back to me

I gave my soul

Wandered all alone

Gave my dreams, and all my goals

But you never came

Back to me

Now you say “Come back”

“Back to me”

Stay away don’t come

Back to me

Back to me.

Back to Me

FLY LIKE ASH

FLY LIKE ASH

It was once told to me

You are going to save this world on your own

And make the whole world yours

When you are grown, make yourself known

I was told once

You don’t know who you are

In the eyes of God

You are a shining star

You told me once

I’m doing it all for you

When I can do it all for me

Pull off and get through

Many a times I’ve been told

The difference between right and wrong

When it’s people telling me

Wrong is what they could not be along

Hell, I’ve been told a lot

The dos and don’ts

Don’t you see what you say

Is exactly what I condone

Now it’s my simple appeal

Shut up! I don’t need you telling me

Who I am, what I can be

God and mortals right and wrong how I see

Let me learn my life by my own

With every falling night, every new dawn

Don’t worry for me failing, for me getting hurt

It’s better to fall in dirt, than hear you blurt

I don’t want to rise from the ashes

I want to fly as them

And if and when I fall

On my own, I want to start the crawl again

 

Gray Haze

GRAY HAZE

Warm gray haze, smoke in my lungs

A funny little feeling, slowly it sunk

I smile a bit, for no real reason

I’m at peace, life’s at ease and

I take another puff, get real high

No care for the world, aim the sky, no more shy

As the hands, the feet, the face get numb

Slowly it sets in, I’m being so dumb

Gotta stop drugs, I have to quit

Every time I do them, I feel like shit

Time to go clean, live a little sober

Am getting a life now, the dream world is over

I tried so hard, was clean for a few days

Till on the streets, I smelled the gray haze

“Just one” I think, “I’ll slowly stop”

It gets me high and I feel on top

It makes me worse, yet I feel so good

I love this feeling though quit I should

Get numb, feel dumb, stop I would

Gotta quit, feel shit, I wish I could.

Alive

Alive

Dead to the world, was me asleep

3 in the night, woke up drowning deep

I looked at the ripples, the reflection wasn’t mine

The eyes stared down, watched me supine

It was the world watching me sink

Indifferent they seemed about my last eye blink

Dead to the world, deep in memories I slept

4 in the morning, I woke up with fire around my bed

The luminous flames the world had put blinded my eyes

And the heat of the inferno shut my mind

With no one around, the final moments came

Alone I burnt, my death had no name

5 in the morning, first of the sunbeams

My eyes flashed open, rose from lurid dream

With you by my side I took a deep breath

Kissed your forehead, towards you I leant

Your loving smile made me know

My life is more than a howling echo

It means something to those who give it meaning

That’s when I know in spite of the dreaming

Your love will always keep me floating

And put out the flames when the heart is burning

“My love for you”

“My love for you”

Thinking everyday of what you said to me

What we are and what we could be

Just as I was leaving for a long long time

You asked me to be yours and you to be mine

Now am coming back to tell you how I feel

Forever with you I just wanna be

While you were gone, all seemed so wrong

Now life will be bright, we’ll make the things right

At a distance far away, I just couldn’t stay

A little late I know, but now I know my love for you

Baby do you remember the time that we spent

How the days passes, and the cold nights went

I’ve been thinking of the moments all along

In my dreams every night the thoughts get all wrong

Since I was gone to the place far far away

The only thing for you my heart has wished to say

While you were gone, all seemed so wrong

Now life will be bright, we’ll make the things right

At a distance far away, I just couldn’t stay

A little late I know, but now I know my love for you

A little late I know, but now I know my love for you

Social Killer

Social Killer

Life’s so poignant, so pretentious

I’ve lost everything for me that was precious

I’ve been stung still bearing the sourness

I hate what god has put upon us

Now I just cannot lie low

Will surge with time as the time just flows

I’ll go out and have some fun

So I pick my knife and I pick my gun

Tonight I go and find my prey

A striving soul with life dark grey

And to free them from suffering and strife

I slice them with my sharp edged knife

They may scream, they may fear

But I calm them down, say “My dear”

“I’ve seen the struggle and the pain

You be so good but all ends in stain

Life’s no spring, but season of blood rain

Its worthless, nothing you can gain”

“I’m here to help you out

So don’t scream, dear don’t shout

Look at the sky and the angel up there

Coming down, just little more to bear

Soon you’ll be happy, soon you’ll be free

I’m god’s will to end all your misery”

And in my arms as they die

I kiss their forehead, bid them goodbye

And on the ground as the cadaver lay

I hold their hand, for them pray

“No more will you be forsaken

You’ll be an angel in god’s own heaven”

I pick up my knife, go back home

Still lonely still all alone

I’m no angel with the shining light

I’m just a source to answer their plight

So I sleep and rest, ‘cause life’s not fair

Tomorrow I find more and take their care.