Hallucination

 The lips with a beautiful smile

Haven’t chortled, for quite a while

Eyes which had the brightest spark

Faded too soon into the dark

Her concerned words of care

Do now need their fair share

Her blithe merry ballet of joy

Exposed to life’s puzzles and ploy

The zeal of her adolescent heart

Splintered into bits and parts

Fervor of the juvenile soul

Witness to futile control

Her voice that echoed its distant dreams

In agony and anguish it just screams

The mind apostle to buoyant thoughts

Heedless vagrant, is distraught

In awe of her present and her past

Life and love as I passed, I asked

Was I delirious then, or am I now

Restore her past can I, somehow

My dream: The blue door

I saw a dream last night, and wondered all through the day – what does my dream truly mean? Finally, I decided to write my dream as a poem. In fact, dreams are just like poems, full of oxymora, metaphors and alliterations.


Hope you like it.

The blue door

3am in the morning

Finally I go to sleep

So many thoughts revolve in my head

So many, that it’s hard to keep

I finally cross a river

Before the gush could rise

I do it holding your hand

Even with my closed eyes

I reach the safe place

Behind the blue door

The flood starts to rise

As the skies start to pour

It’s gusty, submerged

the world now seems

A safe place this door

How longer would it be?

As you and me resist the surge

Try to keep the blue door closed

We manage to bolt the urge

But such strong brook, would it hold?

Scores of time passes

I’m still clutching the door

The storm has now passed

But did I let you go

I look around, you, I couldn’t see

Slipped through my fingers? How could it be?

I run the streets, still soaking the rain

And in my heart, I feel this throbbing pain

The picture brightens, I see the sun

What fell apart has been undone

The sky’s now clear, so are our paths

Why not, I wonder, such from the start

And I see you smiling, walking towards me

I feel your touch, your scent in the breeze

The love in the eyes as I see

I kiss your lips; put my heart at ease

My eyes open, I wonder what I had seen

In my thoughts I realize, you had been

And more than ever, I miss our past times, realize

My dream has no meaning, just this rhyme

Judge me, please

Don’t judge me by my past

'cause I don't live there anymore
Don’t judge me for what I do
You don't know my reasons or my chore

And don't judge me, my short love

Because forgetting you, was so long

Don't judge me for how I act

'cause you weren't there, when I cracked

Don't judge, don't say

“If I were you, I’d be brave”

Don't give me, clichés

My burdens you don't weigh

My burdens, my burdens

You don’t weigh my burdens

Step in my shoes, come walk, just once

Yes, these scorched tan tattered ones

And then...

Go ahead and judge me, all my friends

If you don't know me, nobody can

To the shadowy corners of your heart

Silently crawl, go ahead and judge me all

Go ahead and judge this dark song

Give me something to prove you wrong

Go ahead and judge me, thick as thieves

It’s no longer a grief, no longer a grief

100 goodbyes

Staring at the sky, nothing but emptiness

No stars shimmer tonight, in my darkness

This night, forever it seems to last

And I’m here alone, passing my past

I said a hundred goodbyes

But none of them help

All our dreams at one end

And at the other everything else

She can’t see me, no she doesn’t see

How I try, to just let it be

When I dial ten numbers just to keep the phone

And I don’t text her, even when alone

I know how far me she has led

Still I can’t get her out of my head

And I said a hundred goodbyes

But none of them help

All our love at one end

And at the other everything else

Its 5am and I still can’t sleep

‘cause I can’t face her even in my dreams

I ask stupid questions and regret

Every word she ever said echoes in my head

There’s nothing there, just a silhouette

And I keep promising, even that I’ll forget

And I say another hundred goodbyes

No, still none of them help

All my life at one end

And at the other everything else

Why Steve Jobs is my idol

I am generally not a person who believes in having an idol. I believe a person should become what he is,  do what he loves and do it the way he thinks he'll achieve what he wants. Also, I don't think I know a person that well, that I would call him my idol. Yet, there's a lot that I know about Steve Jobs.

Yes, he is filthy rich but there's so much more to him. (I use "is" instead of "was" because this man will stay alive through his thoughts, his innovations and his products that touch our lives daily). Steve is not a good man, eh-aah. He is not a bad man either (well, its debatable). He has shown the world one simple thing. You don't have to be perfect. Because I lay so much emphasis on what I just said, I'll repeat it, in bold and italics. You don't have to be perfect.

Now, he did not propagate these thoughts of his. It was through his life that we could learn.

• Steve Jobs was not wanted by his parents
• He dint even graduate
• He lied to and cheated his friend Steve Wozniak
• A thief, he in a way stole a lot of technologies while from the Big blue IBM and Xerox (know the mouse we use?)
• He did not father his own child
• He abused drugs
• He dint believe in charity, not a bit
• An arrogant man, he was thrown out of his own company!
• He devised all possible mean ways of deriving maximum gains for Apple from its rich customer base. 

Yet, he is where he is, what he is. And there's only one reason for that. He did what he loved to do and, he did it better than anyone else in the world. It may sound very simple, but its never that easy to "do what you love to do".

That is the thing that struck me the most about this person. Steve dropped out of college within 6 months. Sleeping on the floor in friends' rooms, he was attending only one class, the only one that interested him. Calligraphy, where he learnt about different fonts, shapes of letters and how to design them. Maybe the reason we got wonderful fonts in all our systems today.

A great example to demonstrate his will to do what he was passionate about is when he was thrown out of his company. After being publicly thrown out of Apple, a company he himself started, Jobs thought of leaving it all and becoming a monk. Yet, he realized one thing. He still loved what he did. And that's why he bounced back with NeXT and Pixar while he was out of Apple. You have to find what you love, through that and only through that can you achieve greatness. There will be times when you'd be rejected, but you'd still be in love.

Now that's a lesson to learn for career and life. 

Steve Jobs once said said "Don't be trapped with dogma, which is living with results of other people's thinking". And yet I do, and yet he is my idol, well I am not perfect either Steve.

Inspirer, Innovator, Marketeer, Icon

R.I.P Steve Jobs

"I don’t want you to think of this as just a film. Some process of converting electrons and magnetic impulses into shapes and figures and sounds. No. Listen to me. We're here to put a dent in the universe. Otherwise why else even be here? We are creating a completely new consciousness, like an artists or a poet. That's how you have to think of this. We're rewriting the history of human thought with what we're doing."

My Creed

I forgot the face of my love

And yet the love remains

Whom should I tell my love

That the love still remains

I feel so tired, lost all my sleep

Thinking about what could have been

But I can’t move on if I keep looking back

And I don’t want to, I know within

I don’t want to leave the peace this love gives me

Or the pain

I still remember those lips that sold me the dreams

All in vein

But I forgot the face of my love

And yet the love remains

Whom should I tell my love

That the love still remains

This night is all dark

Like my memory and my heart

There’s no light that can wake me

Take me to the place that I wish to be

Where it’s just you, and just me

No care of how the world would see

I still remember the eyes that showed me such place

And all my creed

But I forgot the face of my love

The love, yet the love remains

Whom should I tell my love

That the love, just love that remains

Close your eyes, pray

In the heavy rains on the small street

Amongst the darkness and scorching heat

A child is born, a beautiful little face

A strong heart has just begun to race

In an unknown world she just stepped

Smiles around as she first wept

This is the world that you have come in

This is the place you’re gonna stay

Destiny just unfurled this way

Close your eyes, pray

Its gonna be okay

Across the street in blistering cold

She found her place, or so she’s told

Her eyes shimmer like a summer day

Ten years of life have come her way

Last night she was just a stray waif

Today, big man in the house keeps her safe

This is the world that you have come in

This is the place you’re gonna stay

Destiny just unfurled this way

Close your eyes, pray

Its gonna be okay

A few more years of life she has seen

Don’t remember how many, neither does she

No longer a summer day

Her eyes now home to nasty chafe

Playing daily is she the wife

To the power of a gun, blade or knife

This is the world that you have come in

This is the place you’re gonna stay

Destiny just unfurled this way

Close your eyes, pray

Its gonna be okay

Her endurance in this torment is what pays

No pain in the body, just in heart it stays

On the bed of nails, there she lay

As scavengers bite off their favorite prey

The rest of her life, she bears this thorn

While in the darkness of the streets, another child is born

This is the world that you have come in

This is the place you’re gonna stay

Destiny just unfurled this way

Close your eyes, pray

This world is not okay

Our Story

I see the rain

It reminds me of you

I feel the pain

And all I think of is you

I stare the sunlight

Till it set

Thinking of the first time

That we met

And I feel the happiness

All over new

There must be a story

Of me and you

Give it all

Not expect it back

See all the good things

And nothing I lack

See the dreams

Believe the love

Whenever I was down

You were there to hold me up

Every dream that I saw

It was coming true

Such was the story

Of me and you

The memories are now

As the pictures were then

Like shadows of the clouds

We moved too fast

We moved away

Only to meet again

We do it over and over

Yet the feelings remain the same

It can never end

It'll continue

Such is the story

Of me and you

Soothing arm

What do you do when you see a heart and feel just hollowness

See a whole life succumb to emptiness

See someone lose entire happiness, feeling just loneliness

What do you do when he feels absolute meaningless

Suffering a touch which is just feelingless

Do you see the painfulness the helplessness

You do see the limbless the listless the loveless

The childless the roofless the nameless the lifeless

Living every moment sleepless in the lightless wildness

Bearing resentment in your eyes and just barrenness

Realizing all your life’s just purposeless

Do you see the worthlessness in your perfectness

What do you do when it all hits your consciousness

You realize what you’ve given to the world is nothingness

Do you ever give more when all you get is less

Give some time away from your thoughtlessness

Extend a soothing arm to the one in mess

                                                 How else will we bring the brightness to this darkness

Out of your business, gaze at the graveness

Answer the question asked in mere daftness
Do you choose to live in the blindness or the rightness

Extend a helping hand to the needy
You never know how much it means to them.

Back to Me

Open my eyes I see the dream was gone

Wondering what went wrong

You would know, you could see

Why could I never believe

‘cause here we lay, lay asleep

But the moment I woke, I could see

I’d have to bring you,

Back to me

I’d write down a million rhymes

Sing them another million times

Till my set sun shines

If they could bring you

Back to me

So I do my best, being around

While you act, like a princess crowned

You could see, why I’d never leave

Saw too much love, inside of me?

But the moment the heart broke

I could see, clearly

I could never bring you

Back to me

So I call back all the birds

Flying to the places unheard

Singing along, these imploring words

I wrote to bring you

Back to me

So I stay away, never around

Wrong was I, yeah all along

Now you know? Now you could see?

How in us, you say “believe”

When I could now see, in those eyes

That scream loud, they realize

You can never come back

Back to me

I gave my soul

Wandered all alone

Gave my dreams, and all my goals

But you never came

Back to me

Now you say “Come back”

“Back to me”

Stay away don’t come

Back to me

Back to me.

Back to Me

FLY LIKE ASH

FLY LIKE ASH

It was once told to me

You are going to save this world on your own

And make the whole world yours

When you are grown, make yourself known

I was told once

You don’t know who you are

In the eyes of God

You are a shining star

You told me once

I’m doing it all for you

When I can do it all for me

Pull off and get through

Many a times I’ve been told

The difference between right and wrong

When it’s people telling me

Wrong is what they could not be along

Hell, I’ve been told a lot

The dos and don’ts

Don’t you see what you say

Is exactly what I condone

Now it’s my simple appeal

Shut up! I don’t need you telling me

Who I am, what I can be

God and mortals right and wrong how I see

Let me learn my life by my own

With every falling night, every new dawn

Don’t worry for me failing, for me getting hurt

It’s better to fall in dirt, than hear you blurt

I don’t want to rise from the ashes

I want to fly as them

And if and when I fall

On my own, I want to start the crawl again